BM 4



Being honest with myself has broken me.

And saved me.

Meditation is a lifestyle

Try to expand your perspective and idea of what meditation is. It’s really any act of stillness and awareness that makes room for your peace.
You don’t only have to be sitting on the floor with your legs crossed, eyes closed, spine straightened, and arms stretched out to be in a state of meditation. You can incorporate it in your daily activities.
Every time you watch yourself doing anything, and consciously choose to behave in a way that will preserve you, you are meditating.

You are meditating when choosing to be present and compassionate in conversation with another person. You are meditating when choosing to do your work in way that is true to you. You are meditating every time you take the time to sit down and enjoy a meal that is of nutritional value to your body. Even your approach in a disagreement can involve meditation in that very moment. The list is endless.

In all these situations you are embracing life, inviting peace into your space and existing from a place of love. You are also taking care of yourself and the rest of the universe.

Meditation is a vast form of love that anyone can practice in any way and at anytime. Just choose it


It gets weird when the woke ones seem to be in competition about who is more woke, or whose wokeness is more valid.

Pretty solo

The most beautiful journey can be the loneliest.



Dream destination

When you pull away from the things of the world, there’s only one place left to go into.


Self preservation

But what you will not do is kill me to keep yourself alive;
or erase me to make yourself visible.

Manifest without trying to take my breath.

Exist fairly here. With me.


I can be a heavy life to carry at times.

Your role

Don’t just criticise the world. Pray for it too.

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Basic survival

Oh, and if you can…

let people breathe around you
move by you
blossom in your presence
receive light from you
display all that they are before you,

if you can.


Sometimes violation looks ordinary.
It can have a calm appearance and a soft sound. This makes it look harmless to the one that it is happening to.

A harmful secret- that’s actually what it is.

But trauma exposes the secret.
Trauma doesn’t know time, sequence or any kind of order and organisation.
At any given moment it can trigger a flood of feelings, none of which will be too late or too early to hit you. Because feelings are eternally relevant.

Trauma can’t be contained.
It will lay its mess before anyone at anytime; it doesn’t wish to carry itself well.
It will not politely knock at the door of your breath. It will barge through your seemingly small cracks, ones that you thought were not big enough to accommodate any further destruction.

Trauma is resilient.
It will find a way into you, caring less about your rules.

So don’t ask me why I only chose to speak up now.

It’s a miracle that I still have enough of myself to speak at all.

Normal Magic

We are really just blown away by the ordinary things that we have forgotten about ourselves.

We are magic and that’s normal.



Being enough

Constantly rediscovering that I am the one that I was waiting for.




Love is not as scarce as the world makes it out to be.


It was a tough time.

But it gave me words.

A God. Still. Always.

When you’re in a bad space the joyous sounds of laughter and cheerful chatter are suddenly a haunting audio.
Sunshine, fresh air and the general brightness of the outdoors become offensive, its almost as if the refreshing ambiance of the day is mocking your pain. But before your heart began to cry you appreciated these things.

That’s when it becomes apparent that nothing in the world is either good or bad but whatever you perceive it to be.

We are literally creators.


Powerful even in our pain.





Find you. Hurry!

I pray you realise your beauty before they do.

What if they keep it a secret?
What if they snatch it and leave you lying helpless on the floor?
Will you have the strength to find it when you’ve hit the ground?
What if you never do?
Are you prepared to die empty?

And when they tell you that you are worthless? How will you know that’s a lie?
How long will it take you to find your truth after they have buried it so far down in the ground?

I pray you realise your beauty before they do.
May you never discover it at your heart’s funeral.

Find yourself before they do.

Battered bodies

Black elderly women try to encourage us, their young black daughters, to lose our big asses and wide hips because theirs were shamed when they were growing up and even in adulthood. It’s hard for them to understand that this younger generation of black girls are actually proud of their voluptuous shapes.

One of my back mothers suggested that I trim my womanhood. I smiled and told her that my body is the way it is because I am a black woman. She was genuinely puzzled at my polite protest. I was genuinely happy and proud to be able respond to her suggestions in that way.

It was a gentle conversation.

I understood where she was coming from.

I understand the more gruesome violence elderly black women come from with their bodies.

You end what you end

You have every right to distance yourself from someone at any given time. But you better respect the consequences of it, and the vibe you create because of it.

The thing about the doors that you shut is that,

sometimes it can’t be you that opens them again.

We’re in this together

Not everyone will know what you know, feel what you feel, consume what you consume or realise whatever you realise.


Don’t attack.

We’re not going through the same experiences.

Make your discoveries accessible to your fellow man at least once.

The dark trap

The scariest thing about being in a dark place is finding your way around it. This ability can make you oblivious to the harmful impact of your night. It makes the need to pull yourself out less urgent, and perhaps even unnecessary altogether.

You think that you are living out the narrative of survivors, unaware that you’ve actually allowed the darkness to form part of your identity. Because really, how do you even begin to realise all that in your comfortable dark glory? How do you begin to grasp all that when it feels like you’re finally breathing? I mean, even imagined peace is worth holding on to.

And yes, sometimes one is genuinely surviving, lets not underestimate the strength of the spirit. Be careful though; be careful when you find yourself dealing with darkness easily. That may be an indication that you have become it.

And then…well…you’re just fucked.

May darkness never get away with imitating who you are.









Whatever kind of goodbye

They will sometimes leave your life without a word.
Allow it.
Let the space in which the exit took place be – whatever its temperature, look or sound.
Let it be.
Because goodbyes have never promised to exist in a certain kind of way.






Thokoza dlozi.

Black divinity is a thing.


Songs are memory boxes.

The Queen’s scam

The English language has made it easy for people to imitate intelligence.
That’s all the intelligence ever is – a soulless imitation.

Actions speak

At least behave like you want the things that you are asking the universe for.

The balloon

It wasn’t just a balloon. And I didn’t have a disprin that I could take for my pain when he popped it. All I could do was experience this striking lightening move inside of me.

He had succeeded in making me fold myself into absence; I grabbed my earphones and desperately smashed through the walls of music trying to find solace and pieces of my stolen peace.

It wasn’t just a balloon.
Why are people so mean?
Why do they get to be this horrible?
I didn’t have a disprin or anything to fix myself, so I had to sit there and feel him win. My body was forced to communicate satan’s glory with me.

It wasn’t just a balloon.
I found myself carrying a weight of disappointment in the world’s enablers, myself included as this.
The ones that throw wood at the fires that come from pained things like him.
They validate these terrorists and make their ugly stand as something cool and acceptable.
Why does satan get to live so comfortably?

It wasn’t just a balloon.
It’s never just about the balloon.
I watched myself struggle to breathe because another man decided to be weak right by me.
He scattered his broken pieces in my space, and all I could do was watch, while trying to avoid being cut.

But I was cut.
Yes,I was cut.
Because people are mean.
And my feelings are explicitly honest.
And it was never just about the fucking balloon.

At least keep YOU

It’s okay and perhaps necessary to disengage with the world. But you must remain engaged with yourself.

The world is a construct.

It is you that is life.

It is you that must always be kept.

Pain and words

Pain looks sexy
when dressed in poems.




The truth has its seasons.

Forever you

There is literally nothing that can end you.

You will rise somewhere else,
in some other way or form.

The rhythm of your breath will be different,
but you will still be able to dance.

Endings don’t know a thing like you.
They could never.

You were created by too many forevers.



New. You. Always

I wish you constant new,

even if it doesn’t look “good.”

Be new.

Always be new.



Body Talk

The body is a physical expression of who we are; a creative tool that we use to present self, both consciously and unconsciously.

You could call it a canvas.

The way you move, treat, and dress it is all a silent story about you. But we taint this genius tool when we attach our egos to it; causing us to view it in the most basic, and often toxic, of ways.

We shouldn’t have to stretch too far to collect the beautiful stories about these bodies; their ability and will to carry us is enough. What could be more beautiful than something that carries all of the wonder that is you at any given moment? Something that you break and heal inside of constantly.

These bodies can actually stand us. They can stand who we are. And when we cheat or neglect who we are, the body reacts to show that to us. Because these bodies are honest.

Now these bodies will perish, but for now, while we are here, they are a language for all the things that we have packed into “I am…”



I suppose you break to realise just how much you can’t break.
You kind of just always grow back in different parts of life’s soil.

That’s all.

Feel Carefully

Good intentions can have harmful outcomes.
Apply your heart.



Self-care woos

My self-care is easy to carry out in the mornings.

It’s a little harder on the other side of the ams,
when then the world and all of its toxic traps are awake and set up.
Ready to test how badly I want to stay alive.



Just chill, ok?

One of the most valuable lessons I have learnt in my adulthood is that nothing will happen to you if you leave the house without making your bed.



Always almost broken

We are beautifully fragile,
always somewhere between falling apart and keeping it together.

There’s something beautiful about being close to breaking,
and still only just bending.



Truth is a good story

Good storytelling- whether it is through writing,photography,film or drawing-is less about the skill for that medium than it is about one’s courage to tell their truth.



How will we heal ke?

How will we heal when the world has a one size fits all hierarchy for dis-ease?

How will we heal when our dis-eases are at the bottom of the hierarchy, or not featured at all?

How will we heal when our dis-eases are deemed to be too little, unimportant?

With all this erasure, how will we heal?